this organic disorder...

"this organic disorder is a safeguard for me because it keeps the thoughtless at a distance. i also get certain advantages from it. it gives me diversity, contrast, a quickness in leaning to one side or the other, as this or that object invites me, and in regaining my balance. 

certainly it makes my dogma obscure, my cause difficult to defend. but since no one comes to my aid, i run to my own and try to keep up with myself."

jean cocteau, the difficulty of being.